So then I become afraid that people would hold those emotions (shared in moments of vulnerability) against me.
Well, today I will break that pattern. One of the reasons being that I won't be able to relive this part of my life and I would like to share my feeling.
For the past year (of engagement to Andrew) I have faced a roler coaster of emotions. They mainly range from super extating, to being patient, to being anxious and then again to being excited.
I'm sure more than one person can relate to those feelings before a big day/event/trip, etc.
Well, as I sit here listening to Oceans by Hilsong, I can't help but rejoice in the knowledge that The Lord has my future in His hands. There is no uncertainty there, that fact won't change based on my feelings.
For the last 21 years (almost 22) the place I've called home has been wherever my parents/sibiling have recided. For the past 5 years, I've slowly considered Andew's house a home, but I've never actually lived there. I've never really lived outside my parents' house (aside for a short 3-month internship a couple of summers ago) in my life! That's about to change in 7 days! 7 short days.. It seems so surreal!!! It's frightening (It will be a HUGE change), yet the excitement overtakes any other emotion.
After five years of waiting and dreaming with Andrew, the day is finally here and I couldn't be more excited! There is anxiousness insisde of me, yet there is peace (that surpases my undersanding for sure). The Lord is definitely leading me to a place in which my faith has never been before.
I know he has called both, Andrew and I into this marriage and a life-long devotion to Him and His Kingdom.
So Lord, take me deeper than my feet could ever wonder for I know that when Andrew and I call upon Your Name, You are there.
God bless,
Aranza
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